This **** just got real!

"You wait your whole life for a single moment and then suddenly it's tomorrow," - Dr Susan McCallister (played by Saffron Burrows), Deep Blue Sea (a film from 1999)

Hello all

You know what creeps me out? Well, a few things, but for the purpose of this blog entry, it's time and how quickly things creep up on you.

For 27 years I have looked at a certain day where something (which I will talk about in a future blog) that will happen far off into the future and I haven't really worried about it because of this, but now that day is fast approaching and it's freaking me out.  For years I have been waiting for this day to come and it's now just a few months away and it is the scariest thing ever. It's properly freaking me out. Just for your knowledge, it's not tomorrow, if those reading this thinking that something will happen on April 20th, I just thought the quote sounded cool.

I could use many words to describe how I feel right now - apprehensive, edgy, fidgety, irritable, jittery, nervy, on edge, overwrought, querulous, ruffled, shaky, skittish, snappish, solicitous, spooked, taut, tense or timid, but I can't put into words just exactly what I am feeling at the moment.

It's never really felt real until now. Until now it's just seemed like a day that just wouldn't come. I've talked about it, at length sometimes, with some people but I never really took it seriously, but now it's in the near future it has left me in a near permanent state of nervousness. I'm nervous for many reasons but the thing I'm most nervous about is the aftermath, what happens afterwards. I always say that I have a relatively thick skin and can handle anything that comes my way, verbally anyway, but that claim is going to be put to the test in the few months following this day.

Just how ready can you be for the day you've been preparing for for your entire life?

Of course some of you already know to what I am refering to and will think I am over-reacting somewhat.