I sincerely apologise to three amazing girls

Hello all

I want to spend a blog apologising to three people who I feel deserve them. Those that I have wronged in some way in the past who I still keep in contact with. I would stress this is only the wrongs I feel guilty about.

So, where better to start than the person who I consider my closest friend at the moment, Jodi.

Jodi - Jodi, you have been my rock through tough times ever since I have met you, you have helped me through the good times and the bad times and I can't thank you enough. You've outlasted friends who I thought would last for my entire life and no matter what happens in our lives, whatever country I end up living in, I hope that we remain friends.

I owe you an apology because of how I have acted towards you in recent months, and more specifically, the last week. I didn't react well to what your friend had said to me and regardless of how it made me feel, I shouldn't have taken that out on yourself. I sincerely hope you haven't taken my enthusiasm as anything more than an attempt to be a good friend, because that's all it's ever been intended to be.

Marinda - Oh Marinda, it amazes me how shite I treated you given how well you treated me and I blame myself for the issues you started experiencing during the later parts of our friendship. I feel guilty about how much pressure I put on you to give more than you could have ever possibly have given, and it was wrong of me to expect you to give much more than your were capable, or willing to give.

We were friends for 8 years and during that time I transformed into a paranoid fuck because I had fallen madly in love with you. For several years I was convinced you were the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with. You made me laugh, cry and every other type of emotion that a human could possibly experience, and you didn't deserve what I ended up turning into.

Honestly, I used blame you in some parts for how fucked up I am now, but as they say, it takes two to tango and any issues I have now were the result of my own inadequacies as a friend, not your fault.
Cathrine (spelt that way for those who think I've made a typo) - I think we were friends for about 6 years, give or take, before I made one of the stupidest mistakes that I have ever made and lied to you about something so blatently obvious that I didn't know how to react and literally shut you out of my life. I felt like such a twat for years afterwards that I was afraid to get back in contact

You were an awesome friend when we were talking on a regular basis and although we have each other on Facebook now, our conversations aren't exactly numerous. Hopefully one day we'll become good friends again.