I'm fine, thank you for asking!!!!

"Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with your's"- Mary Schmich, later turned into lyrics by Baz Luhrmann.

This morning I have been quite disheartened by recent events with various people, more to the point, the way some of my so called friends act.

I've always been the type of person who will need friends to keep me going for various reasons, so I always make sure that I treat the friends I have with respect, honesty and openess. I try to be there whenever my friends need me and with a lot of them, I will drop everything that I am doing if they need my help or advice. I don't get the same in return.

I know it's only a small thing but when I enquire as to how you are, it hurts when after you answer, you don't actually ask me how I am. The thing is that this isn't just confined to a few friends, this is spread across several people. The thing is that if it only happened once or twice then I wouldn't actually complain, you might forget on occasions but every once in a while would be nice, I can think of at least 10 people who I always ask how they are, they respond.........but then move onto another subject. I'm fine, thank you for asking!

I think I seriously need to reassess who I consider a friend because I'm getting sick of bending over backwards for people who treat me like shite all of the time. I know I have both fond and bad memories of Marinda, but at least she had the decency that whenever we did speak, she would always ask how I was after I had enquired.

As I say, it's only a small thing but it just fucks me off. It fucks me off how much time I dedicate to my friends, spending our conversations helping them with stuff but they are seemingly unprepared to return that consideration when I have something I would like to talk about.