Fear, the most genuine emotion

Hello all

I'm not going to talk directly about what I was afraid in this specific blog, but I'm going to talk about fear.

Whilst you can force yourself to fall in love with someone, another can influence you to hate someone else and any other situation involving emotion, I've found the only true emotion is fear. Fear doesn't lie to you, you are never fooled into knowing you're afraid of something, fear doesn't discriminate, fear doesn't care who you are, fear is the only emotion you know you can trust.

Taken in 2004 with my friend Jamie on "Air" at Alton Towers
One of us is afraid of heights.....not too obvious which it is.

The aren't many things I am afraid of.....heights is certainly one. I've always had a fear of heights. I've been to Alton Towers three times, and a mix of rollercoasters and the heights from the high-wire transport system have seen the friends I'm with get nervous at my shaking. I am terrible with heights.

I am also not keen on the dark. I would stress that I am not afraid of the dark, but I am not keen on it because you never truly know what's that, it could literally be anything. I'll grant you that 99.9% of the time there will be nothing to worry about, but that doesn't stop me getting nervous.

Then we get onto Thursday 21st June 2012. It was a day where what I am set to announce on July 2nd was told to several people who I work with by my manager. Again, I'm not going to say what it was (not until July 2nd anyway), but all of a sudden I went from being generally laid back at work to all of a sudden being an emotional wreck. I became incoherant and struck with fear and had it not been for being taken away from my desk by Claire and Amy, I would have had not come back around as quickly as I did.

Today I discovered that whilst I can control all of my other emotions, fear will always hold the upper hand.

Oh well, until next time.

Peace out!